doesnt add up

I just recently thought, do my friends really consider me as a friend like how I consider them. All school year, since late October all of my friends agreed to plan something for that person's bday. if it either for a gift or a party or both. They asked me to chip in and others as well. We did this thing until April. I participated in all of these events. Probably wasted money I could have used to buy books for the next year. Well I thought it was all good, since I get to see my friends happy and having the sight of joyment to the face was enough. Sure, I am being a bit jealous right now but isn't it right when a person receives they should also give. Like in valentines day in Japan, the girls give chocolates to the guys. In return the guys gives back chocolates on white day. I thought birthdays worked like that too. Sure, a few of my friends spent the day with me on my birthday. In fact one of them got me a gift that I really liked. How about the others? The people I chipped in gifts for and crap. You'd expect for them to atleast give me a card. Nope, not even a single card. Shit, some of you guys got balloons and cards that sang. What do I get? Shit? People know who I am. I am appreciative about anything. Sure a txt msg and a fb msg is fine. But can't you be more considerate and atleast get me a card in which I can have memories for. Because honestly, who keeps a txt msg for years and years like how they keep a card. Idk, maybe its just me being jealous or maybe its my friends just not seeing me as the friend as I see them.

P.S
I am not the only one that experience this too. There were plenty of others. Sure, they may not feel the same way as I feel but its just been bothering me alot lately. Call me the jealous type but this is the truth. And for those who experience the same as I did, you should feel as sorry as I am

i’ve been so nice to people and people just treat me like crap. it just pisses me off and I dont wanna deal with people like that. good night.

Those were the words on my tumblr today if you guys do not follow me there.

So what is the meaning of all this? Well, if summer has taught me anything so far, it taught me that there are roughly three types of people you'll meet in life. Person one is the person that you can trust the most. Someone who can agree or disagree with your problems and life. They ask you whats going on, what happened when there was a big scene and they are just concerned about you. Person two, is the person that you are chill with. You can enjoy a nice drink with them, you guys chill a lot , you can talk about your problems but not reveal anything and thats all cool. They know that you guys aren't the best of friends but letting you know whatsup is just good to know. And person three, thats the one I despise the most. These are the people who are I think that they don't give a shit about you. They ask you whatsup because they want to make themselves look like a good friend. But whats the point of that if you just treat them like crap. These people bother me the most.

Whatever those are one of my many thoughts of the night.

I am still here

I've been on tumblr a lot lately. Why the switch, because I can just post up random shit such as music, photos and articles in a easier fashion. Don't worry blog, I won't abandon you. I've just been busy with summer that is all. I meant to write 2 posts today but I got extremely lazy. Anyways, summer has been great so far. I've been playing alot of basketball and been going to the ymca alot. I havent seen any dramatic changes but hopefully I'll see some. Anyways, I'll be back soon and if I am not then I'll be on hiatus

i hate it when people just purposely ignore your txt msgs, ims and phone calls. it just shows how inconsiderate and rude a person truly is

I just hate how people just treat me like shit

Why do I try so hard

I ask myself, why do I even try. I have tried multiple approaches, done multiple things and I still fail. Even thought I am not the one that gives up easily, I guess what they say is true. Nice guys really do finish last

Sick

I'm starting to feel sick of people. I feel like I do so much for some people and they don't appreciate it. I'm they type of a person that wouldn't mind a simple thanks,a card or just a little of acknowledgement of their grattitude. I just feel so sick of it lately. I'm not being selfish or anything but sometimes it just really bothers me. Some of the times I never recieved those things. Maybe I am being selfish now, or maybe it's others being selfish or not caring .. Like last night I had a dream where we were celebrating christimas, and everybody all my friends and families were all happy. They were just enjoying themselves because they were just having fun. The reason for all this is because christimas is a day in which no one forgets. Absoultely everyone has it marked on the calender. Everyone has a good time because it's a joyous occasion. Getting to my point, just recently my brothers bday just past. No body said happy bday to him. I was still in school at the time and I couldn't say it. Instead I got him a card. So when I went to orientation this week , he offered me a ride. Somehing he usually doesn't do. He feels much like what I feel. You should recieve in what you give. Well those are my two cents. You can now follow me on tumblr at www.lxtsang.tumblr.com