not so much of a snow day

I was really anxious to see some snow today. However, it only snowed a bit while I was napping. I didn't really spend my day as I hoped. I was hoping to finish most Gurren Lagann today. But I am stuck on episode 5. Don't get me wrong, it is an excellent series but I just have fallen ill lately and I've been sleeping a lot. I woke up with a terrible runny nose. All this nasal congestion is really annoying. Thank god for sudafed and Vitamin C. Even though I didnt really spend the day as I would like to, I did get some homework done and think about my grandmother's recent death.

some days

My life has gone through a total wreck these last two weeks. There are days where I just want to kill myself because I am just making life worse for others. Seriously, I think I am just utterly useless somestimes. Like wtf am I good for. I fucking suck, and just makes things worse. Whats makes it even worse if when you are trying to help and the next thing that happens is failure. And then there are days where I feel like I am not wanted anywhere. What tops it all off is losing one of the most important people in my life, just gone like that. I didn't even get a chance to say my goodbyes when she was still stable.

Days like these, I just wanna die myself.

Good show so far.

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The only amywhine house song I would probably listen to besides rehab

heaven at night

I could have done so much more.
I sure am going to miss alot of things.

I am just glad that she had a second chance and that she made it worth while.