some days

My life has gone through a total wreck these last two weeks. There are days where I just want to kill myself because I am just making life worse for others. Seriously, I think I am just utterly useless somestimes. Like wtf am I good for. I fucking suck, and just makes things worse. Whats makes it even worse if when you are trying to help and the next thing that happens is failure. And then there are days where I feel like I am not wanted anywhere. What tops it all off is losing one of the most important people in my life, just gone like that. I didn't even get a chance to say my goodbyes when she was still stable.

Days like these, I just wanna die myself.